Denial

It is October 3rd, 2009 and I am still in denial. Of what, you might ask, and I will tell you. Denial of being a college graduate. It still does not feel like I am living my own real life, I still believe that I am in a dream and I'm just waiting to wake up and still be in college, a student of Chapman University. It is kind of like a trick and I am wishing to just laugh it off and go back to the life I knew for the past 4 years. Its one of those things you never think will actually come, and then you grow up and realize you aren't a kid anymore. I also know, however, that those 4 years were well spent and I wouldn't change a single thing. If I had the opportunity to go back, I don't think I would, as nostalgic as I am, just because it would never be the same. All good things must come to an end, and when the end comes, hopefully you will look back and smile. (but I still wish I could rewind time and be back in sophomore year....mainly because I still had a meal plan and could eat at the caf whenever I wanted...AND get to hang out in the library)

:)